Spring has arrived and with it; really, really awful nightmares. Things usually take a downward turn in December and don’t really bounce back until the beginning of August, so it will probably be another long ride. Therapists have suspected that there might be some sort of anniversary reaction there, but I was hoping to never…

Well, another Christmas on the books. I’d been hoping it would go well this year. Last night my cat and I listened to the entirety of A Christmas Carol by Charles Dickens, because my grandpa recorded it once for us on cassette and I digitized it and uploaded it to YouTube under my real name….

Things continue to gradually improve. I’ve been working really hard trying to get into substitute teaching, but it’s taking forever and now everyone is on Winter Break so it’ll be a while. Meanwhile, I have COVID thanks to my current job at the preschool 🙄 Apparently my boss, who would probably have been a nice…

Well, you guys… it’s been intense ever since I got out of the hospital. When I discharged, I came home to find my turtle gravely ill. He’s pulled through and made a full recovery due to the most amazing veterinarian ever. However, it did require five trips to the vet in the first two weeks…

Well. Last time I got out of the hospital my therapist fired me, and this time I came home to a gravely ill turtle. It feels like I can’t catch a break! So my turtle and I are doing what anyone would do, and are panhandling on the internet. As I said somewhere else, my…

Behold: The cat. Now, there are a few potential issues that need to be ironed out, and I will probably be worried sick until he’s actually in my arms. My urge right now is to write a list of everything that could possibly go wrong, and of course a to-do list to prevent each thing….

Someone posted this on the Evangelical Reddit page today https://reddit.com/r/Exvangelical/s/OlmdIFhhbb TL;DR: The OP’s mom is Evangelical and heard an “uplifting” story about a guy whose mom didn’t abort him. I replied with this: A very kind staff member just did a check-in to see if I was depressed at all. I said yeah, technically, I…

I’ve been meaning to bring this up with a therapist or something for several years, and I don’t remember having gotten to it. Ever since I can remember, my internal narrative rarely uses the first person singular. It usually says “you” or “we” instead. When I first went off to college, the voice that said…

So, on Tuesday night, I sent the PHP one of my famous emails: Hi. My day was good. After program, I got a call from the receptionist at my therapist’s office that my therapist never wanted to see me again. Therapist had never given me any indication whatsoever that there was any kind of problem,…

Well. Back when I had my long inpatient stay with Dr X, one of my initial concerns was that I didn’t want to get attached to anyone, ever, because the other person always left. Usually, they do so when I’m at my absolute worst, because they decide that they’re not being helpful enough. One day…