Month: December 2022

I thought this was a funny description of a very real phenomenon. Even though I’m not trying to get pregnant, every period it feels like a piece of me is grieving that there’s no baby.

Background: My cousin died four days ago. I loved my cousin. I keep thinking that I should work on this dissociation and maybe feel things. Like, I’m so numb right now that I just took out the trash barefoot and wearing nothing but a tiny short-sleeved nightgown and barely felt cold. (It’s in the 20sF…

Well, as an update to last week’s mustard gas scare… still no mustard gas, but I definitely picked up a nasty cold while I was there. I was totally fine until Thursday morning and then wham. Also I know everyone gets nervous before starting a new job, but I think I’m more nervous than most…

I’ve been working on my room, so I thought it would be fun to start a YouTube channel under my blog alias and put them on there. Any readers could check you the channel on their own if they like, but this is the most recent video: After all this cleaning on Saturday, I finally…

Well, my therapist did not disappoint! When I arrived I told her that the agenda for the session was on my blog. I was going to bring my reMarkable 2 with me to therapy but at the last second I decided not to because I was worried I would lose it. So she wrote this…

Goal-Directed Persistence: My Goals and Values When I was in the hospital, Dr X encouraged me to work toward goal-directed persistence. I never really realized how serious an issue this was for me until the past couple of weeks. I was working on my book and I was super gung-ho about working on my book…

My little turtle and I have been spending a lot of quality time together lately so I’ve been making YouTube videos of him. I made one of me cleaning his tank but apparently it exceeded the maximum file size for WordPress. Fortunately, I was able to upload the video of his grunts. I recorded him…

I put up a post in August ( https://apostateturtle.com/?p=843 ) in which I shared a video but didn’t explain why I thought it was important. This was quite the oversight because I actually thought it was deeply relatable, and that it both described my approach to blogging (and life in general) and also helped me…