One time, Dr. X told me that if you’re in a crisis but you push through, things get better. Actually I suspect that I’ve had this conversation more than once with more than one person and probably more than once with just Dr. X. But the one conversation stood out and since yesterday was sort…

I just feel so deeply alone. I’ve been initiating contact with my siblings but they never ever respond. The only time I actually get to communicate with them is on Christmas if I get them gifts, so I maxed out my credit card (which had a low limit, fortunately) on Christmas presents for them. Then…

Just another life update. It turns out that missing ten days of school due to an emotional meltdown puts you way behind on life obligations, so I’ve been going crazy trying to catch up. I finally turned in my last past-due assignment yesterday and now I’m trying to finish this week’s projects by the end…

Today was the two staff members at day treatment’s last day. I was expecting it to be hard, but it was harder than I was really ready for. I’ve been in my room since I got back and every time I hear footsteps I silently panic that somebody is going to knock on my door…

I discharged from the hospital today. I feel a lot better. When I was going through my long inpatient stay, “David” the staff member and I used to talk about The Two Percent. The Two Percent sucks. She and I have virtually nothing in common, and yet she hijacks my body and does and says…

I finally just begged the crisis team worker to admit me since it was my third time in the ER in two days. I told him I knew I would probably be looking at spending a week in a really unpleasant ER setting but I just couldn’t manage on my own. Thankfully, he agreed. I’ve…

Well, my therapist called the cops and I am in the ER for the third time in two days. So for anyone who might have been worrying, I am safe ❤️‍🩹

I’m exhausted. I suspect that the poor guy who answers the on-call for day treatment is exhausted, too. He sent me to the local ER yesterday but they said that I was fine and sent me home. So I went to a different ER and they said that, basically, there are no inpatient beds at…

Okay, so this sucks. When I discharged from the hospital, there were four people working at day treatment. There was the director, who I had worked with a lot, and three staff members. One of the staff members was new and only came in two days a week, and the other two I had worked…

I haven’t posted a life update in a while, so I thought this would be a good time to do so. I’m still going to day treatment most weekdays, but I’m also in school now so I’ve been very busy. I’m taking some classes at the local community college to work in childcare. I already…