I’d been meaning to update this blog for a while, but life has been exhausting. Then last night I called the hospital where I was inpatient for over a year. I asked about a specific nurse who had always been amazing to me, only to find out she had gotten a new job. I think…

In this video, The Skep✓ responds to Trinity Radio’s video, which is available here: I watched this video and wanted to make my own responses because I felt like The Skep✓ didn’t really do a great job of answering them. I usually like his content but in my opinion, this video wasn’t his best work….

I’m so frustrated. People have this perception that having a trauma disorder is about remembering painful things that happened and being upset about them. I’m always being told that I’m an adult and I shouldn’t let the past affect me. But it’s unfair and people who say that don’t realize how privileged they are not…

Well. I started a new job on Valentine’s Day, also in a child care center. It’s definitely a better fit even though the pay is a bit less, and I love snuggling babies all day. Unfortunately, a couple of weeks in, things went to hell here at the group home. An acutely psychotic woman was…

Well. Laryngitis was the final straw and I’m not longer working where I was at. Technically I quit and technically it was impulsive and technically it was probably a bad idea. I was convinced I was going to be fired anyway. However, I wasn’t necessarily wrong, and after weeks of intensely beating myself up for…

I’m still sick. On Thursday Jan 12, I saw my PCP but I was feeling better again at that point. Little did I know what Round #3 would bring. I spent Jan 16-17 (Mon-Tue) in the Emergency Room passing a kidney stone, while still sick with bronchitis. I wasn’t able to get in to work…

As anyone who hangs on every word I write in this blog will remember, around Christmastime I had a horrible cold that I caught while I was in the waiting room at the ER for the Mustard Gas Scare Incident. In my life, when I catch a cold there is usually a period when it…

Well, I cleaned my room. All it took was about a month of work and my life savings. But it was worth it! Behold: To start, I got a super-basic-with-ads Netflix subscription so I could watch The Home Edit. That was so inspirational that I watched a couple episodes of Tidying Up with Marie Kondo…

I thought this was a funny description of a very real phenomenon. Even though I’m not trying to get pregnant, every period it feels like a piece of me is grieving that there’s no baby.

Background: My cousin died four days ago. I loved my cousin. I keep thinking that I should work on this dissociation and maybe feel things. Like, I’m so numb right now that I just took out the trash barefoot and wearing nothing but a tiny short-sleeved nightgown and barely felt cold. (It’s in the 20sF…