Month: August 2022

Perhaps my blog will become a hybrid blog/vlog someday. Anyway for now you have witnessed the difference one hour can make for a trashed room

Sometimes, my room looks beautiful! Unfortunately, right now it is a couple standard deviations below the norm. Basically I feel like I’m sitting in the middle of a huge pile of rubble and debris. I don’t even have sheets on the bed. I’m hoping I can have it sparkling again (including the turtle tank) within…

When I first got discharged from inpatient, freedom was glorious. Sure, it was an adjustment and I missed the people from the hospital, but I liked being able to live my life again. I was functioning well enough that I could do so. Currently, I am still NOT at an inpatient level of need, but…

Some say the world will end in fire,Some say in ice.From what I’ve tasted of desireI hold with those who favor fire.But if it had to perish twice,I think I know enough of hateTo say that for destruction iceIs also greatAnd would suffice. Robert Frost A fun fact about me is that I went to…

There are few things in life that are more satisfying than lying in bed next to one’s turtle and listening to the sound of him crunching on dark leafy greens. My turtle’s tank is opaque, but I put it alongside my bed so that I can always sit up and check on him. Last night,…

After over a year of people suggesting that I limit my daily to-do lists, I’ve finally started doing it. The urging of my current outpatient therapist was the straw that finally convinced the camel not to set her sights too high. Each day (if I’m going to be productive that day), I list three things…

This makes all the sense in the world to me. I don’t even know what to add. I grew up in chaos with absolutely no schedule or routine, and I’ve been trying for my entire adult life to be able to remedy that, but it just leads to frustration. I feel defeated because I can’t…

Sometimes I feel like I’m getting it from all sides. I have a trauma disorder, and trauma disorders fall under the umbrella of mental illness, and some people with mental illness also have cognitive impairments, and therein lies the confusion. I wrote the other day about the woman who thought I didn’t know to go…

I took a shower today. Historically, taking a shower has meant sweating profusely and hyperventilating for at least half an hour after getting out, but lately my body has decided to add in uncontrollable vomiting. My therapist strongly advised me to shower 1-2 times a week rather than daily since it seems like my body…