Author: theapostateturtle

For years, I’ve been saying that I don’t want to have to deal with traditional therapy; I just want to opt instead for AI and self-help books. However, it’s manadory to work with a human, due to “human connection.” Which would be great, except that Western psychotherapy fundamentally opposes one critical truth: Relationships are not…

Well, things have run into some hiccups. First off, sorry that Part 2 of the newsletter hasn’t happened. Other than that, I thought things were going terrific. VF was proud of me that I’d been out of the hospital for a while. I was in a crisis unit in April, and don’t remember the last…

The Four-Step Plan is still in place!! First off, if you’re reading this, thank you so much! Lately I’ve been running into issues where I put information on my blog, and then forget to actually verbally tell people what’s going on in my life. So, for example, I go back to substitute teaching next week….

Survivors’ guilt is real. It was over a year ago that I got out of HBM in Worcester, and it still haunts me on the day-to-day. I’ve asked myself why I can’t move on. And there are reasons. Obviously, it permanently changed my ability to trust providers and be open if I needed help. Worse,…

Hello everyone! Long time no post, it’s been crazy. In the first half of July, happy things kept happening. On July 2, I saw the cardiologist, since the PCP had previously given me some bad news about my heart. Well, the cardiologist looked at everything and declared it all to be a false alarm; my…

Yeah, it’s been pretty painful. Just one week ago, I was so hopeful going into the procedure. They had to put a stent in my right ureter. The last time this happened, I didn’t know that I was supposed to limit activity afterwards. So I was walking three miles each way to my highly-physical job…

Well. I’m here awaiting a procedure. They’re planning on doing lithotripsy and placing another stent for my right kidney. I am incredibly frustrated because I thought the stone would just pass by itself, but here we are. So, I thought I would type out my plan for my life, because why not? I definitely feel…

Well, just to start off, I want to reassure my longtime followers that I am okay. Things in my life were extremely rocky for a while there but I am happy to report that I am alive and figuring things out. Aside from the fact that apparently my heart is going to shut off in…

Well, this is the redacted letter I got today from the PCP. As background, the medications listed are all in the same class, which my insurance won’t pay for. I was stable on semaglutide (which is in this class) for years, but, you know… it’s expensive. So when my insurance changed, they kicked me off,…

So, in the interest of avoiding clickbait, I’m not like immediately about to die; the guy gave me 30 years. It just sucks because that would put me dying at 65. Anyway, I had a check-up with the PCP today. It had been on the calendar forever, so I had a list of topics that…