Well. A million thanks to everyone for bearing with me lately! I know the October newsletter was very uninteresting. I did finally discharge on October 27, and am doing much better. Which, I plan to write some inspired entries very soon about that, but my faithful readers will know how I am with cliff hangers 🙄
Anyway, my plan for this entry is to take care of some housekeeping. First off, I have to figure out a plugin to properly put a PDF on this site. I’ve been converting PDFs to JPG and putting them up that way, but this breaks down when I then try to convert the entry back to a PDF. So, there’s been blog-related activity going on, just not actual posting!
Using the Paradox of Intention to Get Things Done
So, as a test, I’m going to try to put up a PDF of… another person’s blog. There was a short story that I knew I had read as an adolescent, and always thought of, but couldn’t remember. I had tried googling it and asked AI, but no luck. Fortunately, another redditor on r/englishliterature punched in the same info and was able to get AI to find the answer! Now, I have no idea how to cite this, which is triggering my OCD need to cite absolutely everything. So, I’m going to put this picture:
(I don’t know why I blacked out the username; I just see other people do that and I think it’s a privacy thing)
…and a link to the blog: https://adam.nz/how-to-get-things-done
So, here goes:
Note that I did increase the contrast from the original for readability. For those at home reading the PDF version of this entry, here’s the old-fashioned version:
Well, it was meant to be a humor article and it’s almost 100 years old, but no fooling I’ve been using this strategy for the past 20 years.
YouTube Endeavors
Well, I started a podcast! You can find it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=arlBlAEJetg&list=PLldJqrGiJxNux7DMXDRR1lEF3GZDxRAFH
OR, allow me to embed the first two episodes:
I feel like the second episode was better than the first one, so if you only have time for one or the other, I would suggest that one!!
Also, I’ve been updating my “safety plan,” which has been quite the project. I’ve noticed that in an actual emergency, getting myself to the hospital can be an insane challenge. I’ve also noticed that the solutions to most of life’s problems invariably involve index cards. So, I devised the following flip book. It’s unlisted on my channel, hence a blog exclusive!! A million thanks to the lovely social worker who I persuaded to persuade the Powers that Be to let me have a formal accomodation to be allowed to take my index card holder with me should I ever find myself in the ER again. I’m so proud of myself for my invention and I think somebody else somewhere would probably find it useful as well! (I didn’t invent the index card holder or any of the pieces; just the apparatus as a whole.)
Other Goals
Well, I currently have $5.41 to my name, but I’m working on furnishing my place. I finally have all the furniture I need, except I have no couch. I have dining chairs, an office chair, my bed, and a meditation pillow. I don’t really have space for a couch, unfortunately, so my objective is to procure a La-Z-Boy and just refer to it as a couch, as in the movie Killer Sofa which I never watched by I saw a YouTube review of:
Hunt Jones. (2024, October 30). I Found The WORST Horror Movie Ever Made [YouTube video]. Retrieved November 10, 2025 from https://youtu.be/xa4C8bmccv0?si=oEffDRX2Ldp8g0wZ
This would seem like a financial side quest, except I do get some pretty significant chronic pain that a couch might be helpful in addressing. It turns out that your stomach is in the same part of your body as your heart, so what I thought was “anxiety” for the past several years was partially GI. I mean, it was also anxiety, don’t get me wrong. The most recent hospital finally put me back on the med that had always worked (Zyprexa) and it has done wonders for the crippling, life-altering constant chest pain I’d been dealing with. However, I still get chest pain whenever I eat, and it does make me feel better that it’s not anxiety. Because if it were, then the pain would be my fault for not doing positive affirmations correctly. So, all that to say, it turns out that the pain was GI the whole time. This is definitely exacerbated when anxiety is out of control, but not on like a minute-by-minute basis. So I’m not actually more anxious in moments when my chest is in excrutiating pain; just having chronic anxiety beyond a certain threshold causes overall damage to most of your organs, and in my case GI is the primary victim. I actually bought a used copy of The Mind-Gut Connection but I haven’t read it yet. So, I’ll keep people posted.
Aside from the couch which would hopefully help with pain, I’m working on procuring a vehicle and a few other things that most people my age take for granted. But, the most important things are obviously the turtle and the cat, who are thriving! The cat has some mild asthma, so I need to dust/vacuum more and probably get him an air purifier, which is currently near the top of the to-do list. He does have an inhaler as well which he’s supposed to use twice a day. I’ve been giving it to him once, since he really hates it! Being in the hospital for several weeks definitely threw off my financial groove big time ðŸ˜But, a girl can dream…
Okay, I’ll have a few more entries coming up, so stay tuned!!