Author: theapostateturtle

Well, a few months ago, I decided to find a Ted Talk that I saw once at a mid-grade mental hospital by the seashore. It was literally several years ago and I didn’t remember any keywords, but I took the time to find it because it had made a major impression on me. I’m always…

Well, long time no post! Basically, I discharged from the hospital, got COVID, and then got a job. I’m actually surprised by how well this last thing is going. The cat is having a really hard time adjusting to my being out, and I’m tired because I still am getting somatic flashbacks for an average…

Gas Leak: When it rains, it pours I woke up this morning to two missed calls from the pet sitter. My mind immediately went to a worst-case scenario, but thankfully everyone is medically fine. However the cat accidentally turned on the gas on the stove, so there was a significant gas leak all night. My…

I’m exhausted but I’m up ruminating so I’m hoping this will help. As I’ve mentioned, the episode in June at HBM was the single most traumatic event of my life. When I got out, I was destroyed, to the point that it felt like nowhere would ever feel safe again except my apartment. I never…

Hi all, first off, sorry for the appearance of my website right now. Something’s wrong with the CSS. I’m working on it. So, I was recently at this hospital with the uncreative title of “Hospital for Behavioral Medicine” (or “HBM” for short) in Worcester. Suffice it to say, it was the single most traumatic event…

Hi everyone. This won’t be a long post, but for some reason it’s important to me to post at least once per calendar month. So, shortly after my last post, a Very Bad Thing happened to me. It was the single most traumatic event of my life thus far. So, now it’s like… I can’t…

A Chance Encounter Well, I was recently back at the privileged mental hospital. It started out as a med adjustment gone wrong, but then my therapist dropped me and the details are extremely cryptic. I do not like that as soon as life gets remotely hard, therapists run away. Their tolerance for stress seems to…

So, I’m not saying I’m the greatest genius in vegan history, but I feel like I need a little recognition. About a year ago when I had first moved and had a place to cook but was low on money, I set out to save on groceries. Protein is generally more expensive than other nutrients,…

I’m out of town and I was feeling a little down, so I figured I’d look up just the ∞-ish most recent photos of my kids 🐢🐈‍⬛ Photos This is my pictures of my turtle that I had to save to Google drive. Originally I got a new laptop and thought a good first move…

Well, I must have started this post at least a year ago, but I always stop when I get too emotional. So, my apologies if it feels choppy. I had the text conversation above with a wonderful woman who I’m in the process of befriending. She’s actually the owner of a dog-walking small business. Now,…