Author: theapostateturtle

And I don’t understand why I can’t get it together, because I already had that miraculous intervention and spent 14 months in treatment despite not being able to afford a residential treatment facility. The very last time I saw Dr. X, he pointedly said that he had decided to help me because he thought I’d…

Whelp. One thing led to another and here I am, back in the psych hospital. I’m disappointed in myself, since my last admission was in September and I thought I was past this. In retrospect, I may have been overconfident. In my defense, I knew for weeks that I was headed toward crisis, and there…

Well. I had been crawling along to my procedure tomorrow when they were supposed to do lithotripsy and remove the stent. I had communicated that I just absolutely did not have a friend who could hang out with me all day after the procedure, and my case worker was trying to get them to keep…

Well, I’m not dead and things are not as bad as I’d thought. I spent the night in the ER last night, and they discharged me this morning. This is how it went down: As background information, I got the ureteral stent put in under general anesthesia. I did not understand why the surgeon didn’t…

I’m writing this entry so I can mentally process what happened and how I ended up in the ER today. Last summer or fall, I got a UTI. I went to urgent care and got antibiotics. My PCP said that when I completed the course of antibiotics, I could just assume I was fine because…

One thing about me is that therapists are often shocked that I can talk about really severe trauma without seeming to have any emotional response to what I’m saying. This has started to be problematic now that I’m spending a lot of time with “neurotypicals,” because I can be tone deaf to what is and…

Here’s the video I promised in my last entry!! Also, I should mention that I did manage to track down the notes that the surgeon left regarding how my procedure went. They did indeed find the stone, but they weren’t able to remove it and hence the stent. Now, Dr. X surely did encourage me…

Well, it has been an eventful couple of weeks. I’m sure you’ve all been on the edges of your seats wondering what is up with the Apostate Turtle. Well, I’m still working full-time at my dream job and slowly completing a practicum at the local community college. As far as I can tell, my boss…

I wanted to share another update on my housing situation so it would help me process. I honestly do not understand the difference between a lot of these people’s job descriptions, but they apparently managed to find a new regional director for the group homes. My expectations were low, but on May 22 (Monday of…

I’m so frustrated. I discharged from the hospital in June of last year, and for a long time I stayed on the medications that were prescribed by Dr X. In March, I went through some trauma (which I have belabored in previous posts) so my outpatient psychiatrist decided to add 150mg of oxcarbazepine twice a…