Author: theapostateturtle

Well. Last time I got out of the hospital my therapist fired me, and this time I came home to a gravely ill turtle. It feels like I can’t catch a break! So my turtle and I are doing what anyone would do, and are panhandling on the internet. As I said somewhere else, my…

Behold: The cat. Now, there are a few potential issues that need to be ironed out, and I will probably be worried sick until he’s actually in my arms. My urge right now is to write a list of everything that could possibly go wrong, and of course a to-do list to prevent each thing….

Someone posted this on the Evangelical Reddit page today https://reddit.com/r/Exvangelical/s/OlmdIFhhbb TL;DR: The OP’s mom is Evangelical and heard an “uplifting” story about a guy whose mom didn’t abort him. I replied with this: A very kind staff member just did a check-in to see if I was depressed at all. I said yeah, technically, I…

I’ve been meaning to bring this up with a therapist or something for several years, and I don’t remember having gotten to it. Ever since I can remember, my internal narrative rarely uses the first person singular. It usually says “you” or “we” instead. When I first went off to college, the voice that said…

So, on Tuesday night, I sent the PHP one of my famous emails: Hi. My day was good. After program, I got a call from the receptionist at my therapist’s office that my therapist never wanted to see me again. Therapist had never given me any indication whatsoever that there was any kind of problem,…

Well. Back when I had my long inpatient stay with Dr X, one of my initial concerns was that I didn’t want to get attached to anyone, ever, because the other person always left. Usually, they do so when I’m at my absolute worst, because they decide that they’re not being helpful enough. One day…

Still inpatient. It’s been a bit rocky. I thought I had someone to clean my turtle’s tank and then the person forgot that she had said she’d do it, so I had to find a last minute pet sitter who could go in and do it today. However, this meant that I couldn’t spend the…

About a year ago, someone shared a video in a Facebook support group I’m in that was so good that I went back to find it. And I did find it: Tragically, when I clicked the link, I got the dreaded: In good news, your girl the Apostate Turtle memorized the transcription. The delivery won’t…

So. There was an episode at work and I don’t want to go back and look at how much I’ve written about it on here. Suffice it to say, I’m trying to define “flashback.” So I found this video: This was my reply: Thank you for this! I have a diagnosis of PTSD (technically severe…

The latest unlisted YouTube video, just for my faithful readers