Author: theapostateturtle

So, I have truly not been suicidal since I left the hospital, which has been incredible. But the YouTube algorithms somehow knew I would appreciate the dark humor in this (trigger warning): And as a thank-you to my dedicated readers for checking out my blog, this is my turtle and his dinner today:

*Dr. X is how I refer to the doctor who was my attending while I was in inpatient for 13 and a half months. He never specifically gave me permission to write about him on my blog so I’m giving him the same privacy that I would want given to me. September 1 was my…

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRP4PfCn/ Pennythegingercat. (date unknown). Who doesnt like cats though… #fyp #catsoftiktok. [TikTok video]. I’m trying to get a cat. The group home has a mouse problem and I think a cat would be just the thing. I like cats because they’re psychologically complex. They have boundaries and are secure in themselves. They want companionship but…

Perhaps my blog will become a hybrid blog/vlog someday. Anyway for now you have witnessed the difference one hour can make for a trashed room

Sometimes, my room looks beautiful! Unfortunately, right now it is a couple standard deviations below the norm. Basically I feel like I’m sitting in the middle of a huge pile of rubble and debris. I don’t even have sheets on the bed. I’m hoping I can have it sparkling again (including the turtle tank) within…

When I first got discharged from inpatient, freedom was glorious. Sure, it was an adjustment and I missed the people from the hospital, but I liked being able to live my life again. I was functioning well enough that I could do so. Currently, I am still NOT at an inpatient level of need, but…

Some say the world will end in fire,Some say in ice.From what I’ve tasted of desireI hold with those who favor fire.But if it had to perish twice,I think I know enough of hateTo say that for destruction iceIs also greatAnd would suffice. Robert Frost A fun fact about me is that I went to…

There are few things in life that are more satisfying than lying in bed next to one’s turtle and listening to the sound of him crunching on dark leafy greens. My turtle’s tank is opaque, but I put it alongside my bed so that I can always sit up and check on him. Last night,…