I haven’t posted a life update in a while, so I thought this would be a good time to do so. I’m still going to day treatment most weekdays, but I’m also in school now so I’ve been very busy. I’m taking some classes at the local community college to work in childcare. I already have experience teaching but this will give me more recent experience and hopefully make me more marketable, as well as allowing me to work with younger kids and hopefully do a good job at it. I’m in week two of being back in college and one week ago I almost dropped out and got a job at PetSmart, but as I mentioned to someone I’m trying this new thing where I don’t make major life choices impulsively and it’s really been working out better for me. Anyway this school seems to have courses that only last half the semester, which I personally question because I feel like evenly distributing work throughout the semester would make a lot more sense, but what do I know. So I’m taking one normal class and another class that only lasts half the semester and thus requires twice as much effort while it is in session. And like I mentioned I’ve been working on my mental health at day treatment as well. Book-writing is kind of on the back burner but I’m going to get back to it once this dumb half-semester course is over. I’ve noticed that it’s been harder for me to be productive on weekends than on weekdays even though when I get home on weekdays I’m tired from trying to get over my trauma disorder, and I attribute this to loneliness. It’s like in The Sims when your sim can’t be productive because one of their basic needs hasn’t been met. On weekends, my social need is depleted so it’s hard or impossible to be productive. This means that I’m going to have to re-think how I plan my weeks, knowing that weekends are the opposite of the productivity powerhouses I usually expect them to be. I also got this great app called Pomodoro Timer which is the app version of the Pomodoro Technique and it has helped a lot. And I spent $60 on some noise-cancelling headphones to block out the sound of my roommate downstairs wailing screaming about how he needs to kill himself immediately. It’s amazing how much easier studying is now. I just pull up some lofi music on YouTube and play it through my headphones and it’s almost like my life is normal.
Although, the group home isn’t actually that bad. Even if my roommates are nuts, it’s nice to be around other people. And sometimes they cook dinner and sometimes they drive me places and that is nice of them. I’m pretty sure all the staff thinks I’m a fragile princess type that never went through any actual trauma and is just in the group home because I’m dramatic but I try to keep away from conversations about my mental health with staff anyway. It’s a bummer that I have to be here because what I actually need would be a family but I don’t have one because I’ve spent my adult life overcoming trauma so this is the next best thing.
So anyway, that’s my update. For once, updates are actually pretty humdrum. Coming up soon I want to write about some of my turtle’s best attributes but that will have to wait for another day.
